06 April 2006

Am I koppig? Ha..ha…Yes I am

One thing always rises in my mind when somebody mentions name of former president Soeharto is his character. Soeharto has ruled this country for 32 years by heavy hand. Everyone who disagreed with his policy would be marginalized and (sometime could be) annihilated. Why he was like that? From an article I read a few year ago (perhaps in 1998 but I am not sure) in Detik tabloid, I got an explanation about young Soeharto. He was known as a rigid military officer. His order could not be denied. Everyone who became his follower had to say yes to him. There was no place in his dictionary of life to word “no”. No tolerance. No excuse. The article wrote, Soeharto was koppig officer. Koppig is Dutch word means rigid, strict, firm, or stiff.

Of course this article would not be given out discussing Soeharto. I just want to share that I got a criticism from my close friend, yesterday noon. By online conversation (phone call), she said I am a rigid person. I never obey her advice. She also told that every advice and opinion she gave never be obeyed by me. Was she right? Am I really a koppig person?

Let’s see what topic we discussed by phone yesterday. First, she touch on my single status. Her opinion about me is I am a difficult person. A man that could not understand what woman wants. By other word, I am man who always “gives the cold shoulder” to woman signal. They, woman she means, need a response more than just words or promises. They need an action or implementation of my responses. As she said, I should use feeling when building a relationship with a creature named woman.

What is my response lies on his opinion? I said yes, may be I am a koppig person. I said, it has been a long time my heart being freeze. I also called up our past discussion about love and marriage. I said, do you remember I ever said I wanted to marry you even I don’t love u?

Unfortunately, this online conversation could no longer exist. She had to close and promise will called me later. What was happen to me after she put down the phone call? I contemplated what would be happen if I follow her words. Maybe I have a girlfriend or a wife now. Of course if her opinion is absolutely right.

But….am I really a koppig person? I am not sure. Maybe she is right and maybe not. Whatever the answer is, I don’t care. I believe I should change my life. I need a friend for accompany my rest of life. She has to understand who I am. She will be my best friend, my teacher, my counselor, my soul mate, my sparring partner, my supporter, my…. every thing. I hope, she should be you. A person who has given a criticism to me. A person who called me koppig.

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